It has never happened in my life before, the people to whom I trust, believe, love and care the most today they are no more with me because they don't want me in their lives and all of a sudden I became a stranger and an outsider who is not wanted in their world and all the doors were closed on my face.
Today, while sitting alone at my cave/shell/home, I started rewinding my life from the begining, which I could remember very distinctly, clearly and properly; thereafter, evaluating each and every incident, episode, action, deeds of my past and trying to pin-point the route-cause of my mistakes, which has made my present life miserable, painful and hell.
But to my utmost surprise, I started trembling, shaking and shivering to remember the number of incidents which took place in the past were wrong/incorrect, which could have been avoided, and when I look back and see from today's prospective, they all seems to me, my wrong doings. But when I did those things at that particular point of time, they were not wrong; may be because of my childhood ignorance or sheer madness, I have done it, but that was my past and those deeds were done without any wrong intension, intent or motives, it just happened in that particular situation/incident which was beyond my control, and I just can not set them right today, inspite of my best intentions.
After deep thinking/evaluation, I have come to the conclusion that we are simple human beings and God has made us a social animal; in this life we keep on making similar mistakes again and again intentionally or unintentionally, but in real life the wise-man is he who learns from his mistakes and move forward. But if he starts compiling life's all wrong doings and living with it, then one day he will find his life itself a bundle of mistakes and the true essence of life will be gone with the wind.
Therefore, I have decided to ask for their forgiveness in your presence (you be my judge), from each and every person/s, who came into my life since my childhood, and I am sure and confident they will accept my sincere apology and they will excuse/pardon me once and for all, which might have hurt them very severely, since the scares of my sins were so deep that it hurts them even today.
Oh my lord, I beg of you and ask for your forgiveness for all my wrong doings, mistakes and deeds. Instead of giving them my love and affection, I have hurt them with my selfish act of arrogance, high headedness and ruthless behavior. Therefore, I pray to God Almighty with my folded hands, please make the life of each and every person/s, (who came into my life, as a friend, family or stranger), comfotable, smooth, trouble free with your blessings and give them good health, happiness, wealth, joy, fame, love; all their dreams may come true; and make them so powerful that nobody can hurt them, in this life time, again, Amen!
With Prayer
Gurcharan
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