I have my life’s last appointment with her only

I have never met her in my life till date, but one day I will definitely meet with her in person, face to face. Everyone is aware of her but nobody talks about it, I don’t know why?

It’s my destiny and I have to meet her, I don’t have a choice also, even if I run away from her, ultimately, I will have to meet her and her presence is always felt by me. I just can’t forget her. I have tried to forget her by all means but of no use because the more I try to forget her the more she tries to remind me about her. What shall I do, day-in and day-out, she is there and every day in the morning, when I wake up, she very politely reminds me that our union is getting closer by one more day, and she is anxiously looking forward for the D-Day.

Why my Lord, why with me, why are you doing these things to me. And not a single day has passed in my life when I was not reminded of her. Oh my lord! You cannot be so cruel. You have given me such a beautiful life to live with my parents, family and friends. I am very happy and enjoying each and every moment of it and I want to remain with them forever but deep-down in my subconscious mind it’s written in golden words that I can’t live with them for ever, one day I have to go and amalgamate with the Mother nature.

I know for sure I have been blessed with a human life and I have got this life for a particular purpose which has already been decided by the God Almighty. Although my parents also knew about this secret but still they tried to hide it from me, instead they enjoyed each and every moment with me and also took lots of pain, trouble and worries in bringing me up, sent me to the best school and college, got me married with a beautiful lady, encouraged me to have family of my own but through out this journey of life one thing which was not told to me by any one, that includes my parents, teachers, relatives and friends, and that is about Her.

But for how long can I be ignorant about her, finally the universal truth has come out and I have been told in very clear words about my last journey which happens to be my destination also.

Today, I am well settled, having a good job, beautiful wife, lovely daughters and great friends but nobody, just nobody can help me out in this regard. And whenever I want to talk about her, I am bluntly told to forget about it by saying it’s not the right time to talk about it or they simply change the topic by saying: “Why are you worried, this is not the time to talk about these things now; you have a very long life to live, therefore, don’t even think about bad, ugly and unpractical things at all, why are you spoiling your present life?”

Now I can understand why Prince Sidhartha (Lord Gautam Budha) had left his wife the very day of his son’s birth. He must have understood in a very young age about the secret of ‘Life’ that’s why he renounced everything without any pain, trouble, problem, regret and/or difficulties (his parents, wife, son, friends, kingdom and his peoples) because he understood the real truth of the Life God Almighty had bestowed on him.

But I am not a good human-being with a strong will power. Moreover, I am not blessed and enlightened person who can understand the meaning of life with ease. I am very poor, simple and ordinary person with an average intelligence, full of sins, deficiencies and short comings.

I am worried, I am tensed and I am scared of her. Oh my lord please give me enough courage, confidence, power and strength to welcome her with folded hands and broad smile because I know for sure that I have my life’s last appointment with her only.

With Prayers,

Gurcharan