SHE IS MY REAL LIFE-LINE

The second most important lady in my life is my beloved wife, (after my mother), who is the most  beautiful, simple, honest, straight forward and a good human being. Besides, she is not only a good wife but also an obedient daughter-in-law, dedicated mother, adjustable sister-in-law, true friend and a good neighbor. At the same time, she also play a different role in  my life; being a wonderful wife; sensible human being; equal partner in all deed and acts; turned out to be  my strong critic; philosopher and guide, as and when required and a true lover in the real sense. Today I can say without any hesitation that she is a better person than me and she is really good, decent and a charming lady of my life.

But when I compare myself with her, I do not feel comfortable, happy and satisfied with my approach towards her and I strongly feel and believe that I have failed in many real-life situations and have never came up to her expectations in many occasions, and my male ego has always created tension between our relationship. I could not became a good husband, better father to my children and a good human being for the society. But yes, in spite of all odd, she always came out a real winner in all situations, because she always took her right foot forward towards the real-life  situations and goals and did what she thought and believed was right at that point in time,  and she has also forced me to act-upon, accordingly.

I wonder, without her, if I could have lived my life so comfortably and when I see my most beautiful daughters with right attitudes, mannerism, sanskaras and knowledge, which makes me a proud and satisfied father, but again, the entire credit goes to my wife, who has dedicated her entire life to serve me and my family, without expecting any thing in return.

I sometimes imagine, what will happen to our relationship when she will come to know that I have never been an honest, faithful, dedicated and committed husband to her? I have learnt the art of  playing with my wife's emotions in several ways and she  has never created an ugly scene in front of my parents and children and she has always kept quite to maintain harmony and peace in the family. I  know for sure, she was  always aware about it,  but she never said a single word against my decision and she silently accepted my injustice, arrogance, ruthlessness, hardheadedness, illogical arguments and stupidity in the name of my  male ego, for years together.

I wish, if I could have rewind my life again and correct my wrong doings but it's not possible now and my simply saying Sorry to my wife will also not serve any purpose and it shall not maintained the sensitivity of the situation, any more. But yes, I can do one thing, by not repeating those  mistakes, deeds and acts again, and I will not hurt my wife anymore by my words, acts or deeds, I promise, because she is the most important person in my life whom I love very much.

With Prayers

Gurcharan